EYES BEHIND THE EYES.

Feel the pain, because you can’t have a rainbow without rain.......

2nd September,1786,I start to take a walk in an unknown way..my feet become torpid..still I am walking alone in the lonely way..the torrent is flowing by the side..still miles to go..alone..totally alone..my mind has escaped from my body..heart is beating rapidly..its remain lonely right now and the reason still alien me..nothing left inside..only reckon upon my eyes..whole of the way of my journey is befogged and I am following HER slot..The late night is wrapped with the beauty..it behoove me in it..I am a patsy life there.....its remind me ''pain is not what we expect but it is what we deserve" Eyes,the beauty of our life,no one could care more than it does..its try to fall in love again and again..while trying to be independent at the same time..that is the problem in our practical life..The Magnolia is now in visible..darkness is fainting down and I am entering in a world behind the world..SHE is waiting for me..for a long time..Morning is too late today and I will not receded..Why are you too late..?..I hear a macaroni voice..Ohhh...SHE is behind me..behind my eyes..a Lazarus old women in word but still a girl by heart..SHE try to pounce me...........The bell is ringing..I open my eyes slowly.. today is 4th January,2005,my 21st birthday.. I was in my dream last night and dream never becomes true.

                                                                                                                                                                                                       Samim Usuf Hayder,nbmc'10

                                                                                                              SBH,14-03-2010(9:21pm)

THE DAY I MISSED MYSELF

An Unknown Destination forever......

The cold morning comedown in my life is somehow different than the usual one..The afternoon is beautiful too..the sun rays are warm..not hot..the trees perform a sensuous waltz..branches and leaves are in delectable harmony..the air touches my cheeks and my lips curl into a smile..I don’t know why I am finding this particular afternoon to be so appealing..I cannot find a reason for this heartfelt happiness..the plant that sits on my window sill has reared a flower and a golden light seems to be emanating from it..maybe it’s a trick played by light on my eyes or perhaps its my imagination.After a long time, I am feeling happy..really happy..its a feeling I am fondling in my arms and giving expression through my eyes..maybe, because the present circumstances are going in my favor..however the eyes which appear to be sparkling are soon clouded by an unsettling aura of emotions..the fringed curtains fall once..twice..and shimmering drops of water slide down my cheeks..suddenly every single object around me starts to ridicule..they are mocking me..the flower stares at me with false delight..my heart and mind get engaged in a terrible conflict which results in some more overflow of emotions commonly referred to as “tears”.Someone is calling me and I curse that person.People are insensitive..non co-operating and damn practical..I would prefer to use that hated word..’logical’...they try to define and categorize everything..starting from political views to relationships..I cannot wait to talk to that person..but I know..this is transient...I am standing at the edge of a dark bottomless pit..if I put one wrong foot then I will fall..never to come up..however there is something about this darkness which is so inviting..comforting..it provides me with solace..gives me shelter when I want to hide from this world..I have not felt the slash of metal for a long time..the need is growing more and more powerful..and the world is becoming a hostile place for me..everything has to be told..but it is ironical that everything cannot be told..Few things are meant to be understood..God has equipped every human being with those two wonderful tools of expression called ''eyes''..Unfortunately there is no language assigned for them..even if there is..then people are disastrously blind..and if ears can speak..then people are abysmally deaf...Once I saw a little girl building a sand castle..it was beautiful..the girl molded the sand into proper dimensions..Her hands like that of a mother petting her child..the girl’s eyes glimmered with hope and when she finished her smile was that of satisfaction..however this happiness could not be tolerated by the ocean...the dark waters of Neptune...like a stalking predator..crept up and destroyed the castle in one cruel wave which crashed onto the beach like a merciless taskmaster`s whip..The eyes which had been shining with hope then..are still shining...but not with hope anymore...tears run down her cheeks as she watches the destruction of something which she created so lovingly..expectantly..in a similar manner people become helpless witness to crumbling relationships..these relationships get washed away by the cruel world..this world..which is filled with people who are even more ruthless than the ocean..oh no..that person is still calling and I have to go now..the afternoon is no longer beautiful..the sun rays are scorching..not warm and the trees have stopped their “sensuous waltz”. 

 

                                                                                                         Samim Usuf Hayder,nbmc'10

                                                                                                         SBH,14-March-2010(2:37am)

Venus More,Siliguri,2010.

                                                          Venus More,Siliguri,2010.

The Venus More is the junction of the Hillcart Road,Church Road,flyover towards N.J.P rail station and the road towards Coart More.The Siliguri KANCHANJANGHA Stadium is of 5 min. walking distance on the right foot side of Church Road from the More.The Siliguri Sadar Hospital is of 5min. walking distance away from it,on the left foot side of the road towards Court More.The Siliguri Mahakuma Parishad,Siliguri Municipality office,D.M.office,Siliguri College,Dinabandu Mancha,District Forest Office,Siliguri main Post Office are situated near the Court More.The city autos,buses for different roots are available from the Court More.The Sevoke More is about 300 meters away from the Venus More.

Airview More,Siliguri,2010

                                                           Airview More,Siliguri,2010

The Siliguri Airview More is the most popular place in entire Siliguri.It is situated at the junction of Hillcart Road,Burdwan Road and Mahananda Bridge.It may be called the gate way of Siliguri.The Howrah petrol pump,which is the popular place by name to the outsider is just adjacent to it.The place was named as because of the AIRVIEW HOTEL,the one and only popular hotel since 1960 in Siliguri.The distance of the More from N.J.P.rail station is about 6km.The only mean of transport from N.J.P.rail station to Airview more is city auto.The T.N.Bus terminus(Siliguri Rail Station) is about 1km away from it.It is about 5 km  distance from Aireview More to The North Bengal Medical College and Hospital.

                                                  At night Airview More,Siliguri,2010.

AUTUMN in N.B.Medical College and Hospital Campus

                        view from ''senior boys'' hostel,in view ''new boys'''hostel,nbmc'09.            

In the month of SEPTEMBER and OCTOBER the black clouds of rain go away and the ''HILL ON VIEW'' when we sit at the window of our room.You can't resist yourself from being floated over the white clouds above the sky over the campus.One can't suppress his/her poetic mind when he/she look the pick of KANCHANJANGHA covered with the white snow........

The heavenly beauty will definitely mesmerized you.................

SUMMER in North Bengal Medical College and Hospital Campus

 snapshot by Rimpi Aich 3rd.prof.M.B.B.S part-1(nbmc,2010)

Though for a little bit the SPRING still come here with a welcome note of the SUMMER,indicating the appearance of ''POLAS'' in the entire campus.The season of the SUMMER here is from 2nd week of MARCH to AUGUST.Though the season is unpleasant but well tolerable and the maximum temp.is around 35 to 37 degree C.

                                 just before the rain starts....sky above the campus,nbmc,09.

Like the other part of the Bengal the mother nature has not deprived us from her blessing and the blessing shower over us as the drop of Rain.

WINTER in N.B.Medical College and Hospital campus.

                            view taken from senior boys hostel,in view new girls' hostel,nbmc'09.

The N.B.Medical College is situated near the bank of the river BALASON,the north and east side is almost open.The weather is most charming here.During the WINTER session(NOV. to middle of MARCH) is really a  time to feel.During the 2nd week of the OCTOBER the temperature gradually fall and the 1st week of NOV. welcome the calm and cold  wind from the hill area and thus the winter begin here.The temperature varies between 6  to 16 degree C. during the winter session,while the other part of Bengal is on search of winter due to the global warming.We feel we are lucky enough that we are not suffering from this and you can feel the true essence of winter.It's really amazing to see the campus,covered with dense fog when a person is hardly a step away from you.